The TV is on and it's showing the Simpsons.

Watching the Simpsons reminds me of a close friend. We've known each other for years now and when I think about, it's kind of a weird relationship. Why is it weird?

Well, he's jackass.

Ok let me rephrase that. He's a great guy. We connect on a level that has rock solid humour, open mature debates abt anything and everything, a shared appreciation for dissecting movies and a welcome avenue for heart-to-hearts. Plus we've gone through pre-U, uni and studying abroad together. No really, it's great.

It's just that he can be uptight, a control freak, a whinger, loud, egotistical and a know-it-all. He'll also justify all of that with an annoyingly cold and perverse sense of selfish logic.

Why do I put up with this? He really annoys the shit out of me sometimes and I've even called him an asshole to his face. Why do I bother?

Ok so I know there isn't a real answer to this or rather I already know why deep inside.

I guess I just needed to get it out.

"I like Prana coz he's SEXAY!"

I saw a play today.

I don't really go to these things much, but recent events have led me more and more to the arms of local theatre.

I can't even remember what it was called. It was good though. Written by a young writer who I incidentally see at parties and gigs (didn't know she wrote plays), it was a somewhat satirical look into local schools, the state of our education system, the (dys)functionality of Malaysian parental units and everyone favorite sweep-it-under-the-floor topic: racism.

I liked it. A few actors should walk the plank but still it was good.

On a separate note, I found myself holding back today. I texted my best friend asking if she was free to meet up at night. She replied saying she wanted to stay in and watch DVDs so I replied saying ok cool some other time then. I wanted to end it by saying "I miss you," but stopped midway.

The thing with me is that if I'm close enough to you and if I miss you, I'll tell you. Pretty straightforward? Thing is, I say it all the time. I stopped midway (and eventually just sent the sms without it) coz I sometimes get the feeling that my best friend thinks I give out lines like that like someone giving out laptop promo pamphlets at low yatt. But I don't. I do if I genuinely love you (like how I love my best friend) but everytime I say it I mean every syllable.

But I held back. I think about it and it kinda sucks.

You hold back love coz people aren't used to having a lot of it in their face.

On a separate but related note, I don't understand my girlfriend sometimes. But I will. Heck, its only been 11 days.

Hello.

I haven't done this for ages.

It took so god damn long to sort out what my damn user name was for this particular blog. It's been too long since I properly vented online and I think now's the time.

Well maybe not now.

It's frickin' 4am and I refuse to go to bed without watching an episode of Tenjou Tenge, especially since I finished reading the Age of the Five (it was disappointing).

Besides I'll need a clear mind to think intelligent nicknames for the people I'm gonna talk about here.

This is after all, a secret blog.

Not quite herself.

I kissed her. She was really high and she kissed my lips after I asked for a kiss goodnight. I kissed back. We went at it fr an hour. Somehow I feel bad. Should I? She was high...

I didn't hold back. I wanted it. Man I'm such an idiot.

Produce me.

+ A female bassist from a local band has offered to play fr me in the near future. I was ecstatic more fr the fact that I had a teeny-weeny crush on the girl eons ago rather than her kickass bassist skills. She's so shy and soft spoken around me though. Man she's adorable.

+ I've set my sights on 2 possible careers in life at the moment. One's a producer. On what level (film, tvc, budget) I'll end up in remains to be seen but with the induction of our new producer in the company I'm hoping to learn alot. Me being quite anal when it comes to work has really brought out the organised, managerial freak in me. I think anything to do with mgt will work at this point. You can, after all, go anywhere if you're good at mgt.

The second thing I wanna do in life is be a booking agent/gig organiser. I want to be able to have every venue in the Klang Valley in my hand when it comes to organising gigs and putting shows together. I think setting up a network of scene contacts is very do-able at this point and the success of last week's gig has stirred up the thinking board. I'd operate across the genre board of course.

+ I seriously need a girl. Its been so long since I found someone that caught my attention (ok maybe not that long, but that one got snapped up by somebody else). In serious need of some TLC here.

+ I bought a new watch. Its a $499 Guess Steel watch I got fr $209 at a clearance sale. Its Old skool!

I work in a freezer.

• My office is a freezer.
• I didn't fast today.
• I am developing a crush on a girl-I-used-to-like's best friend's girlfriend. I can't help it. She's so nice.
• I spent $190 bucks on comics in Kinokuniya last week.
• I can't seem to find a keyboard for my songwriter friend who's come down from Melbourne.
• I haven't watched a movie in ages.
• I left the office at 7am last Thursday. Me and my workmate were working on a VO for a promo vid all night. Had sudden flashbacks of uni.
• I'm went to see a friend's play last Friday with my boss's wife, her workmate who considers herself my big sis/sugar mommy minus the money bit/no.1 source of sexual harrasment and my workmate's gf. Is there something wrong with this picture? I think I've become the resident lil' brother around these parts. Sigh.
• I ate at Nasi Lemak Antarabangsa in Kampung Baru last night. Orgasmic!
• I've been smoking too much.
• I've been smoking too much.
• I've been smoking too much.
• My friend's ex-schoolmate got busted for weed today. Tough.
• I looked through Kurt Cobain's journal yesterday. I am not worthy.
• Went out on a date yesterday. She was sweet and cheeky. Will definitely go out again.
• Cut my hair. Liking it more and more but I think it looks kinda gay sometimes.
  

Bikinis rock.

I sent Mom to the airport today. She's spending 9 days in Melbourne with my sis who's currently going through her finals. I'm so jealous. I miss Melbourne. I miss the weather, I miss the coffee, and most of all I miss this incredible girl I know there. Every inch of her. Sigh.

*Ehem*

Anyway, the new office is looking more ace everyday. The previous home office we operated from (my boss's place) was ok but damn mahfan la kacau ppl's home. Now we just need to get the work moving.

Went to a friend's bday party last night and I must say it was lovely. This was probably due to the fact that it was
a) a pool party
b) populated by a few bikini clad girls who didn't mind dancing in front of strangers
c) attended by friendly outgoing ppl

it wasn't so lovely due to the fact that
a) I only knew 5 ppl there, but thankfully I get along with the ones I know very well and the ol' sociallising skills are still active
b) I found out a girl I really liked has a boyfriend now. Bummer. Major bummer.
c) the above affected me throughout the party, prompting an early exit

Oh well. The good thing is that now I'm inspired to write again. Funny how tragedy (no matter how small) bring's about creation. Maybe that's why they always use the term the 'suffering' artist'.

Hit me. Again.

God I feel wasted.

The past week has been the busiest I've had in a long time. We just moved office (we're now in the heart of KL) and its just been a big mess of sorting, arranging, installing and cleaning. I've been crashing out every night and today I woke up at 2pm. Damn.

Hmm. Seeing that this is a brand spanking new blog, maybe I should introduce myself.

• I'm a 22 year old male living in the state of Selangor, Malaysia
• I have no intention of revealing my real name since this is one of those escape-from-real-blog-due-to-too-many-ppl-reading-resulting-in-me-not-being-able-to-say-jackshit kinda blogs.
• I work in a multimedia company
• I can wiggle my ears
• My curly hair frustrates the hell out of me
• I feel like ringing my boss's neck sometimes
• I hate onions
• I love fried onions
• I think women are the bane of mankind yet somehow feel obliged to worship the ground they stand on
• I'm a comic fan
• I'm an anime fan
• Music's a big part of my life
• I think thongs are sexy
• I think a girl in a thong is even sexier
• I'm nocturnal

Right. I can go on and on with this but I might bore myself to death. Hello Online World. Again.